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.Sunday, December 21, 2008'
& i dunt want to be the one, left alone in the dark.

i feel like drowning myself.
hurting myself.
just to feel pain.
 
but yet, i'm afraid.
i'm afraid that it will hurt.
and i will stop..
but, inside, i dun want the pain to stop.
with this pain, i wont feel so pain inside.
 
so much words i've said.
and yet, i'm a coward.
i dare not do what i said.
for the fear of pain.
what is this. what am i.
 
i wish i can have the courage to do what i said.
to show myself, the physical pain i can do to myself.
i want to hurt myself so that my inner self will understand.
because i did not feel the pain i did on others,
i want to feel the pain through this.
 
what is life to me.
what is my life to me.            Nothing.
what am i worth?                  Nothing.
people like me should not exist in this world.
people should just throw me aside and away.
for i will end up hurting others
 
why? why the hell am i doing this??
i dunno. 
is it because i dun have the sense of security,
that's why i need people to be around.
i put a barrier around me.
but yet, i need someone to protect me.
i'm just showing that i'm strong.
but, that is just a mask.
 
i'm constanstly wearing a mask everytime.
which is the real me.
because i change it many times, 
i've lost my senses to knowing what is real and not.
that a mask is a mask and not something that i can wear it on forever...







You were the star, the light in my life.
And now, you are walking out of it.
Felt like I was just a victim,
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life.

A hole in my heart,
A scar left behind.
And all i see is that bloodstained knife.


The Lady .

Name's Vinotion.
A living journey of me.
Searching through the past, present and future.


Her .
Updated on 11 Jan 09.

WANTS
- A New Laptop
- A New learning experience.
- A new Handphone
- New wardrobe
- To get into a Local Uni
- To get back my other side of me
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LOVES
- Animals & Nature
- Dancing (La Ballroom En Masse!!)
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HATES
- Betrayal
- Being put down
- To be left out
- ?


Insanity .



Exits .
 
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Melody .

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Credits .

Designer; %BENDAN
Fonts; Dafont
ImageHost; Photobucket
Pictures; Deviantart
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Others; Powerpoint, notepad .